When your world is rocked

It’s been a rough weekend. Our friend was taking his boat out of the water last weekend with his grandkids (the whole family was gathered from back east and Arizona). As he was getting out of his truck it slipped into reverse and ran over/drug him down the boat ramp. It got him in the calf, and was so sever they airlifted him to Harborview Trauma center. They were afraid he might loose his leg. Fortunately, they were able to save the leg, but he has a long road ahead of him.

Later that weekend a dear friend asked to talk to us. This was ominous because she had been admitted to the local hospital and then transferred to a major hospital in Seattle. She is a super upbeat, healthy, strong, active and happy person. The last person you would think as someone with health issues. She told us the devastating health news, that has shaken her and us to the core. I need to explain she has an amazing relationship with Jesus, I mean, it’s the kind of relationship that makes you feel a little jealous, and also a little like a loser!

As she was talking about this, she stated that she was not prepared for this prognosis. I immediately thought to my self that actually she was extremely prepared for this. She had spent much of her life preparing her spirit to be able to handle this news. Of course emotionally there is no way to prepare for this kind of news. However, in her soul, in the part of her that is connected with her Creator, I can visually see her saying to herself in the quiet way she has “OK we’ve got this. I know He’s got this and that means I’ve got this.” Quiet, unwavering confidence.

I found myself asking an uncomfortable question: “Do I see in myself a readiness in my soul at the level that this Godly women displays? Am I ready in my soul for whatever this life can throw at me? I don’t feel it honestly, I feel my intimacy, familiarity and knowledge of my Creator is under-developed to what it should be, to what it needs to be, and most importantly to what He wants it to be. I am reminded of how Jacob wrestled with God and would not relent until he received a blessing. I want to pursue God with that level of commitment. I am not sure what it looks like, but I know what it doesn’t look like!